Tag: my life

I Cook Because It Teaches Me How to Be Alive

I Cook Because It Teaches Me How to Be Alive

When you cook a meal, it is the perfect representation of how will and action produce results. As I cook and try out new recipes, I’m learning what it’s like to be alive. I force myself out of disassociation by salting a broth and tasting how it makes the dish become brilliant with new dimensions. …

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The Darkness Inherent

The Darkness Inherent

Horror has always been my favorite genre, and darkness my favorite flavor of human expression. When I was around 5 years old, my parents divorced. My mother was a Christian housewife, and my father was a horror cinephile and videogame programmer. While we were with my mother, my brother and I were forced to attend …

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Reasons why I probably don’t like you

Reasons why I probably don’t like you

I’m a self-proclaimed misanthrope. I covet solitude for the most part and I can go weeks without really getting the urge to have one-on-one time with another human being. This is partly because I live with a person and I get enough time there, partly because as the years have gone past most of the …

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The dream synced with reality

The dream synced with reality

Those fantasies of happiness used to always be so far away, in a future that I knew I’d never get to. They were reclusive fantasies, hermit-like, in bubbles of isolation that had the gray edges of a dreary afternoon. I’d live in Oklahoma or Iceland, writing and raising sheep, eating alone in diners to the …

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